Snowed In With Thoughts

February 6, 2010

This is my first ever attempt at a blog, so bare with me. I needed a forum to share my mind "junk" and how God is working in my life everyday. I woke up this morning to the fresh fallen snow and was amazed at the glory I saw on my back lawn. There was the boys jungle gym all covered in the fresh fallen snow and I was so grateful. Friday I was sick with a terrible stomach bug and had never felt worse. This morning, somehow I felt amazing.

Jarrett had woken up at 5 a.m. and I scooped him up and carried into bed with me to just rest a bit more. As we layed there he repeatedly babbled "mama, mama, dada...." What precious sounds. Simply music to my soul and my heart! Jason was out plowing snow and Tyler was at my parents for the night, so just my little tank and I in bed snuggling before the start of the day.

This morning brought me back to the long journey we started just over a year ago when Jarrett was diagnosed with spina bifida. How far we have come. Jarrett has surpassed everything we had prayed for and continues to amze us everyday! I think about the good and bad days I had after he was diagnosed. I can remember everyday in the NIC/U after his birth like it was yesterday. Somehow that time came rushing back to me like a flood. Just knowing this little miracle was FINE still amazes me! Then I also recall the day I found out he needed his shunt.....heartbreaking, but I knew that was God watching over him. I spent 3 days in the PIC/U with him and yes I slept in that metal crib each night with my baby! That time with him has been some of the most precious moments I have ever spent with him. The shunt revision in September was hard, but I knew something was wrong and caught it before it could cause any damage. C.H.O.P. is really a gift from above. The doctors, nurses and even the people who take out the trash are amazing and so supportive!

These are things I think about everyday! I hope I never lose touch with those thoughts or emotions. Jarrett and this journey has forever changed who I am as a wife and most importantly a mother. God, I am so grateful for the joy and struggle you give me everyday, thank you!